Dear Millionaire Artist, Because You Seem To Be Doing This Successfully,

Am I crazy to want to be moving to NYC? Actually, don't answer that directly, because I don't want anyone trying to talk me out of this. Do you know how many times I've said that I am moving to New York and then backed out of the idea? Clearly it is something I want.

When I was twelve I walked around my suburban Colorado neighborhood with my best friend and we talked about where we thought we would be when we "grew up".

"I think I'll have a house in the country, surrounded completely by trees with a creek running through the back yard - for my kids to play in," she said.

"I think I'll be in New York City," I said.

She agreed.

Why is this decision so hard to make, then? The fear is biting the back of my neck, but I can envision quite clearly making this move and coming out ahead. Fear is so stupid.

I wrote a few blogs about it this weekend, but forgot them at home. I feel sure this was a tactical maneuver so that I would have to go home at lunch. Don't tell the teacher.